Will be back soon.

I don't know if anyone actually reads this since I hardly talked about my blog. Or having one. 
But, yeah still, I feel obligated (somehow) to post this.

Trials is next week and the whole not-gonna-procrastinate thing don't seem to be going to well. I still have loads to prepare for and I'm only down to a week. Sometimes, I wonder what kind of Upper Six student, who is suppose to sit for her STPM in a couple of months, am I. I hardly sweat buckets, "preparing" for my big day. Ughh.

So sadly, I have to postpone this blogging thing until further notice. Or at least until I'm done with STPM. Grrr. Gonna (still) stick with stpmcountdown project on Instagram... just to so-called keep me anticipating the day itself. 

Wish me the best, as I'll work harder these next few weeks.. for my future. This all plays a part to whether I can achieve my dreams to be a counselling psychologist. So yeah, it's a VERY big deal. 

I shall miss writing ; pouring my heart content into this little blog of mine, but until then, I shall curb that appetite by mini-blogging via Twitter or Instagram. 

See you after 3 months or so! <3

Day 4;

I haven't been constant with this blogging thing... too many projects on my hand such as the Instagram #stpmcountdown and the daily gratitude list as well as training for my first 10km run. OH ANDDD actually preparing for STPM itself. So yes, please do bear with me.

So, day 4. "A habit that you wish you didn’t have."

Hmm, I had to think long and hard for this one 'cuz to list just ONE is practically impossible for me. I have too many bad habits that I wish I didn't have. But, if I really have to pick one, it would most definitely be my tendency to procrastinate.

Yes, I may argue that I'm like any other teenager who tends to put things off for as long as possible, but honestly, I think I'm a procrastinator because I turn it into habit. Plus, my personality trait contribute to that too. I'm a perfectionist by nature, hence everything MUST be done properly and in order. So, I tend to want to finish a task at hand before taking upon another. Didn't really matter if it's a small matter like washing the mug after drinking water or bigger "rocks" like completing homework after telly time.

So yeap, one task at a time. Or multitask the best way possible. 

Now, I shall (slowly hahaha) stop procrastinating and actually complete whatever needs to be done. Wish me the best, fellow readers! ;)

Day 3 ;

circa May 2012 (my birthday month!<3)

I picked this (again!) because this is by far my favourite-est picture collage of my lovely friends and I.

Credits to Aizad for putting all our class mementos together!

I don't know why, but once mentioned 'friends', this "3rd family" comes to mind <3

As I have mentioned before, these are my rakan seperjuangan so yeap, they mean the world to me. 

I think these are the people whom I'm closest to, considering that I spent so much time with them ahaha. 

I know I'm supposed to post ONE photo but I thought, why post one when you can have a collage of them?! Brilliant or what? (lol)

6A2 mates, once again I thank you all. For all the crazy moments, and also them difficult moments that we've braced together. 

Here's to many more to come! 

More sweet memories that is! ;) 

xoxo.

Day 2;

Just saw the match earlier and all I can say is I am proud of our Dato' Lee Chong Wei! :) He played really well and kept his cool throughout the game. Definitely improved a lot from before. He really played like a gentleman. What a brilliant sportsman I'd say! What I saw today was that he gave his all and I'll remember him for that, gold medal or not. And for that, we Malaysians thank YOU for that ... for doing your utmost best despite of everything.

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Okay, day 2 of blog challenge. I was supposed to blog on what my blog name meant. Actually, there's no need for deciphering the name. It's my own name. My full name that is ; its initials. Connie Khong Chai Ai Sim. Hahaha, I suppose now it make sense than C-K-CAS. lol.

I would probably gone with something like brightcandle or shiningstar or awakening or something meaningful along that line. But erm, I decided to forgo that and just stick with just using my own name, my own identity to blog away. Otherwise, a couple of years back I'll probably will go with a pseudonym like punqsk8er or musicfreek. That ain't me and I don't want to hide behind that crappy of a name that mean probably nothing to me now. Punk and skater? I love neither now. Music freek? I mean, I adore music of all kinds but I ain't a "freek". I think you pretty much get where I'm going.

So, there you go, ckcas.blogspot.com. Me, just blogging as me about anything and everything around me I suppose.

Day 1 ;

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 10 (since I actually describe in detail and all hahaha!) interesting facts about yourself.

Buka puasa with my 6A2 mates @ Manhattan's! :)

So, here is day 1 of my blog challenge! :)

 I hope to get this through .. *crosses my fingers*

1) I'm a pure indie.

 Honestly, I don't really know if there is such a term and what definition does it carry haha. But, to me it's mean that I'm as indie as I can be. IN EVERYTHING. Take music for example. I will never listen to a band/artiste/genre/etc if it's the "current trend". To me, I create that trend. Yes, I'm an annoying hipster like that. And when it's starts to get mainstream or famous or basically when EVERYONE around me starts to check that certain music out, I'll drop it as fast as I pick it up. And this applies to tvshows, movies, games, apps etc. Well, most of it anyways. But if it's really good stuff, then I'll hang on to it no matter what. Like, Switchfoot. Now that is a combo of mainstream + indie which is hard to come by these days! ;) Yeap, I'm selfish (?)  like that. 

2) I pick up people's gelagat.

Oh this is quite cool & maybe a wee bit creepy. (If I may say so myself :p)  I sorta "collect" little characteristics or mini traits of people I come across or close friends that I know. And that can be in many forms ; catchphrase/favourite words, little habits, style, pet peeves, gestures, basically anything about them that I like about them and make them mine. I know it sounds creepy but in my naive mind, I'm trying to be indivisualistic as I can be. Perhaps, it's caused by my 'indie-ness'. LOL. Take the Korean aigoo and omo and ottohke or Daphne's cheese in every word possible hehehe or clasping my hands to express my excitement (?) like Dara or CL, or pausing and looking up into the blank air for ideas when I speak like GD or crosses my legs and act as poise and composed as possible like my lovely TOP and well, you get the drill.

3) I find washing dishes extremely therapeutic. In fact, I LOVE IT. 

Other than making sure all the dishes and forks & spoons etc super squeaky clean (cuz I'm a perfectionist like that), it actually calms me down and allow meself to get some thinking time. Usually, I will go through the day and analyze it, like what I should have done and whatnot.  Cleaning makes me happy in a way. Like, I'm "washing away" all my stress, all my crazy thoughts and how I'm reducing from getting flustered over the day or the week. It just takes away all that, even if it's for a fleet moment. And that applies also to (spring) cleaning and organising anything from my school files, book shelfs, tables etc. Another plus point would be that I can avoid awkward moments and unnecessary small talks (at parties) which I honestly despises. It's not even troublesome at all. Like I said, I LOVE WASHING DISHES. :) Then again, if the conversations are rather alive and not actually a bore, I wouldn't really bother with the dishes hehehe.

4) I find myself  rather contradicting in person.

Well, if you must know, I'm a Melancholic - with a teeny bit of Phlegmatic in nature. So, technically I'm naturally pessimistic. However, that doesn't necessarily equals to being a negative person - it just meant that I can foresee the consequences or the so-called dark side of a situation and be prepared for that. But then again, if I'm not careful and then allow myself to dwell in that, yes, then maybe I will rather negative in character. Since I realised that, I learn to NOT let it take over my life and let it be a dark and gloomy one. Instead, I choose to ALSO look on the bright side of things... I don't succeed every time of course, but I don't fail all the time either. Hence, I contradict myself. Like I could be saying how this certain issue is not an important matter to me and thus shall not affect me (my effort of being positive) and then five minutes later, I could crititise / complain non-stop about the matter. And this may go on for quite awhile, back and forth trying to convince myself. Yeap, I do realise that I'm a rather conflicted soul so I TRY not to burden another with such moments of justifications/debates within my analysing/critical-thinking mind if I can help it.

5) I've been listening to every single detail in a song/music.

So, I've managed to finally purchase the Ultimate Ears 100 that I've been yearning for awhile now. And that helped me a lot in picking up every tiny detail that goes into a song. I don't know if many of you do this, but I recently picked up that habit. It's quite cool to hear every note, and beat that plays a HUGE part in making up the song. Plus, it helps with my playing and provide me with new ideas to experiment so that I can learn a thing or two. That way, I can enhance my skills, and improve my guitar-playing. I can't really put my finger to it but hearing the bass line in a song or picking out that little cowbell ring in a tune somehow makes me smile because most of us tend to overlook those little elements in a song. I would just go, "Wow, they actually had THAT in this track? AWESOME!" and grin away like I'm high on something hahaha. (So, don't be surprised when I do that.)

6) I actually listen to meaningless dance/clubbing tracks.

As much as I adore indie stuff like The Reign of Kindo, The Temper Trap, Primary, Tablo, Bon Iver, Sienna Noble, Brooke Fraser, (enter band/artiste that most people/your friends have never heard of),  I do appreciate (enjoy) other genre as well. And that includes meaningless dance tracks. Like HIGH HIGH by GD&TOP, Gangnam Style by Psy, Turn Up The Music by Chris Brown, Take Over by Mizz Nina and so on. Any good upbeat, catchy dance-y track, I most probably would love it. That is because sometimes, I don't want a meaningful, thinking song y'know? But some good beats to get me movin' and to just enjoy the song, really!

7) I find Facebook utterly pointless that I lost count of the time I deactivated my account.

Case in point : I deactivate it (again) today. I don't know if it's the annoying sharing of photos or what, but I honestly couldn't care less about people's life anymore. And for those close friends that I do, I will actually have real conversation with them anyways so yeah, no point for me to actually have it. To me, their mundane, uninspiring post is annoying to the max so to deal with that, I deactivate. Case closed. Gao tim.

8) I have a fetish for glass jars. 

So far, I have a few of them and I plan to have more to organise my stationery mostly. Like, my paper clips! or to keep origami stars or cranes <3 And they do come in all shapes and sizes. Tiny ones to tall ones. At times, I would buy a food product JUST to get its adorable jar after I'm done with it. Yup, I'm "interesting" like that. Baby food jars are the cutest! Oooohhh, and those Ikea ones as well! :D

9) I also have a fetish for war films or anything related to war ; documentaries, movies, non-fictions. 

I'm a huge History geek. So, war films naturally becomes my fetish. I'm not sadistic like that. No, I don't find joy in seeing people suffer, in case you're wondering. It's just that, whenever I watch anything related to war, I always thank God that I need not go through all that and count myself blessed. And it helps me understand people more, be it the victims or the oppressors. It also helps me understand the past more, about the grandparents' generations and their trials & tribulations as well as their predicament, appreciate everything more. Their sacrifice and the bloodshed to defend one's country and it's nation and it's tale. And through all these, I get to obtain a glimpse of that.

10) I eat with chopsticks and a porcelain bowl whenever I want to get in touch with my Chinese/Asian side.

You see, I could never associate myself with anything Chinese 'cuz honestly, I don't really see myself as that. That's because being born in Malaysia and being educated in a co-ed, national school since primary, technically means I don't know much about Chinese history and couldn't read Pinyin. Mandarin skills is almost zilch other than the fact that I can count to 10....which is nothing really. But, I can speak fluent Hokkien.. and am proud of that fact! (I don't get how not speaking Mandarin make me less of a Chinese and be called a banana : yellow outside, white inside instead.) Of course, I have come a long way from there... I'm more keen to pick up Mandarin and Cantonese and reading Pinyin and memorising them characters as I go. I'm getting a bit better and more comfortable each day. Sejarah in secondary and pre-university also helped increased my knowledge on Chinese history, though not a lot. But, I can never truly say that I'm Chinese cuz I don't do what most Chinese would do. I don't have that so-called Chinese pride. Maybe it's cuz I wasn't brought up in an environment where I'm supposed to quiet and demure and ladylike. Instead, I'm the exact opposite and don't really appreciate or understand the love for karaoke hahaha. I often joked that if I were to so-called return to China, I highly doubt that they would even call me Chinese lol. So, if people were to ask what am I, I would proudly say that I am Malaysian first, and Chinese second (even if may sound cliche to you).

So there you go, 10 interesting facts (for now) about me. It's hard to list cuz I don't really find myself THAT interesting anyways. :p 

*I'll update more facts if I can come up with it or feel up to it ;)*

The 30 days blog challenge

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

Day 26- What you think about your friends

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned

Day 30- Your favorite song.

So, in order to revive my dead blog, my friend-blogger Lorraine decided to get me partake in this challenge with her! How awesome is that. Now, I have something to blog about every day! :)

Can't wait to start ... once she gets hers up and running. Or tomorrow. Yeap, tomorrow sounds good.